I feel like a traitor because I haven't updated in days.
But I haven't been anywhere else either [except facebook] so I suppose I'm not a traitor.
Springboard is tomorrow. I suppose it's not so bad but I just feel this anxiety. I love meeting new people, LOVE LOVE LOVE newbies. I just hate MEETING them. You know?
It scares me to think that I'll be at a new place with a bunch of new people. What will they think of me? [Actually, that's the least of my worries.] What I'm most worried about is having to talk to them. What will I say?
Will I look like a dork, like I always do when meeting new people? Definitely.
Will I make new friends?
Hopefully.
I know Maghen and Jennifer will be there tomorrow so at least that's somewhat promising.
I haven't talked to Jenny since eighth grade. It's pathetic that I haven't, but what should I say? "Hey, I know we used to be best friends in spite of the fact that we always competed against each other and sometimes hated each other. In spite of that hate I've always loved you like my favorite sister"  ?

That will go over well. I can see it already. "Umm... you're a loser."
Actually no, she wouldn't say that. But what would she say?

Anyways. S.N. is underway for a month. I miss talking to him. I think he was mad at me right before he left. Probably. Did I do something bad? I feel like an ass. Should I feel like an ass? I don't know. I don't know how I should feel. Is that bad? Ugh. I've got so much indecision that I just feel like a Magic Eight Ball. If you really want the answer, just shake me.