Love can build a bridge...

I have a few declarations to make. 

1.) All promiscuous girls named Nicky need to be sewn up and have their breasts removed. 

-Make that all promiscuous girls.

2.) Guys in their twenties/ late teens don't look right without hair on their chest.

-Ronnie looks right just the way he is... ;]

3.) My [fifteen pound] male cat sounds like a girl kitty.  
-what a pussy.

4.) Ronnie Wayne is amazing.  

-I like him a lot. :/

5.) Auctions suck. 
-and dislocating your thumb sucks too. 

6.) Veterans' day ceremonies make me cry sometimes.

-Especially when all my babies tell me how much they missed me. :/ 

7.) All the Blogger fonts look the same. 
-And this sucks. 
8.) Serial killers are sick people, but they are not insane. 

I have discovered that I am quite good at making Jell-O.

And dislocating my thumb, apparently.

||rwy||

tyler shields- Robots

wednesday night [11-10] i met someone who is..

well, i won't worry about filling in that blank yet. 

but let's just say, i do like him. 

and maybe this could turn into something great.

but i have to keep remembering that i did just meet him two days ago. 
i'm not really worried about it right now. 
i should let it unfold. 

that same day [11-10] i had a rather traumatizing experience. 
one of my best friends, who has already professed her love for the guy she is ACTIVELY dating, 
had sex with a guy who is NOT the guy she is actively dating. 
and i got to listen to the whole thing. 
which made my conversations with the new guy a whole lot more awkward. 
i'm hoping that he still wants to get to know me, and i think that he does. 
but maybe if he thinks he can get it from promiscuous girls like that friend of mine,
he won't be interested in me. 
honestly, i don't believe, even for a second, that he's like that.
somehow I'm just willing to believe that he's different.

"A camera is just an expensive paperweight if you don't use it". 

 

  

some day I'll be pretty like Jackie O. 

 

Desperation.

I need a new dance portfolio. Which means professional pictures.
From a professional. An expensive one.
This worries me. Yes, I'm back under my goal weight and on top of my game, as far as the routines go. I'm finally able to keep up with the skinny girls.
But I'm still getting the headaches and dizziness whenever I go for multiple leaps.
I don't understand it. What's wrong with my head?
It should be nothing. But the fact that this happens to me every time I dance indicates that it is not 'nothing'. It's something. Hopefully it's not something serious.

suffering.

this week, seven weeks into my pregnancy, i had a miscarriage. 

today my boyfriend broke up with me. 

why?

because i 'killed his child'.
does he not realize that i am in more pain than he?
or does he just not care?