Your voice is the soundtrack of my summer.

Counting down the days to Vegas.
I can barely sleep, I've been having weird dreams about everything.
Last night I had a dream that I had a moustache, and something about a baby.
An ugly baby with a funny shaped head.

The Big Event was today.

Worked on a woman's house, raked, trimmed, pulled apart a couple sheds that were falling down.

Got dirty, made a woman smile, worked hard, and spent time with my grandbig.

I'd say today was productive.

Viva Las Vegas.

Andy called me out of nowhere yesterday.

He wants me to go to Vegas with him in June. For an entire month.
I am going.

A, because I miss him and I am excited to see him.
2, because it's friggin' Vegas, which is a place I've never been to, and he promised to take me to California also. 
Maybe I can get him to take me to the Channel Islands. That would make me happy.

Update:
Still scared, still feeling fat, and still hating Centenary.
College, I do hate thee.

Ahh, shit.

So since the last time I wrote,

* I lost my TOPS scholarship for the semester. A long, stupid story, but one that scares the hell out of me.
* Justin has decided he's interested in me, finally. I've liked him since sixth grade, possibly seventh.

* I'm very afraid right now. Very, very afraid for reasons I cannot discuss. Rest assured I'm always thinking about it.

* I've had a hard time sleeping lately. I feel as though I'm being watched. All the time.

* I've lost about ten pounds. I'm now at 140. I want to get to 130, even if it kills me. I don't care how skinny I look once I get there.

I dropped religion yesterday. I didn't want to, but that class was overwhelming and now I'm free to focus on classes relevant to my major like Calculus. I'm really beginning to like calculus, maybe my brain's not working as well as it used to because I absolutely hated math for the longest time.
Well, math is the one thing in my life that is constant. Everything else keeps changing all the time, but math stays the same.
I've decided I need to get a job. I really do not want to work during the summer but if it means I'll have a job when I go back to fall semester, I'm somewhat okay with that.
I've been having the worst cramps for the last two days. But I'm not expecting my period until April.
My life is officially turned upside down. I don't understand much right now.

I'm so upset.

 Apparently my best friend, the one person I've actually trusted since I came here, has been telling my secrets.
Less than a week after I tell them, even.
And I'm really tired of it.
I trusted her with things that lots of people didn't know, but apparently now they do.
And I just hate it. I don't understand why she'd do that to me, knowing I put so much trust in her.
Why would someone DO something like that? When I've had the chance to call her my best friend, and trusted her with things I haven't even told my mother, this is how she responds.
But not to me... to everyone else.